BNSB: FRENCH HORN SECTION

Wednesday, July 14, 2004

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firstly.. i'm sorry if what i said and done had hurt u... actually.. i'm a loser.. a total loser.. but hey.. guess wad?? i'm not.. why?? coz i have all of you near me... encourage me in the things i love to do and things u hate to do.. today. aft the course, i made a speech to the sec 3 exp batch. .and i touches me.. that not only my parents are here to help me.. but.. u .. my junior and my peers.... and i thank everybody.. i knoe there.. and those arent there... if you think i'm talking crap.. i'm not.. i'm saying deep down from my heart.. never i want to torture you.. or scold u.. but it seems that sometimes u all are forcing me... in the 3 day course, i realise something.. i cant change you. only you can change yourself.. i feel that why give u everything, when u yourself have the potential in you to do it.. but instead.. u let ur mind control you.. i'm not joking here.. but it seems that whatever i say.. u guys take it for granted.. u think i care??!! no i dun.. i dun even care a single thing about u.. go ahead and do all the rubbish u always do.. WHY?? coz it isnt me who's gonna fail.. and trust me.. i dun like you all.. really.. i just dont like you.. BUT i love you guys.... answer me this: why must i like you guys, when i can love all of you???

the course taught me what it takes to be me.. i did a speech at me closing ceremony.. and part of my speech.. btw i didnt prepare any speech. i said this,"so what i'm fat.. but hey.. i'm strong" and i really feel good.. my friends and some of the parents cheer me on this.. its a feeling u can never describe in ur life.. no words can explain why.. yeah.. and when i end my speech.. i tell u.. tats a feeling i never describe.. kelly, asmah, shira.. my class.. stand and clap for me.. do you know how great it feels??

Raihan ask me this, "so does this mean..u're gonan be happy 24/7?"
i answer, "no!"
my answer : " i'm gonna be HAPPY FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE "

let me tell you this.. i may be the best f horn player to u.. but remember, there's always someone better.. and if u think i'm the best, u can be better than me..

so never assume i will be the best forever..

if i can do it.. trust me.. u can do it too!

Love you all...

:: RaFiDaH ::

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